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i did not intentually to spook, scare or shock, i did expect a reaction, i did a blog when i did that and explained why but the blog would not post. i apoligize to anyone i offended or shock. i put that there so everyone who saw it, it is gone. if theres a look at picture page or something ill post there with a warning. i put that there to show that im telling the truth  and im in a dont know what to do situation. this photo is when i was in the service, would you believe i was in intelligence. im twenty five in this photo now im fiftyone. if i was in the service why dont i get help from the V.A. im what you call nsc.[non service connected which means i can get fixed if i get hurt but once your better your out the door. if i would have been in during a war id get all benifits, but i wasnt and i dont get a thing. im not going through every detail but i was in a car accident and ended up legless. when i first joined this site i really didnot know what to do  because i had no ssi or ssd.but i left, i even for got about this site and i really dont know what to do. i had a roommate we talked at the  nursing home because we were healed, healed meaning medicade quit paying. my ssi and ssd got turned on at the nursing home i get 683.00 a month. why so little, well i was in service for 2 years and became a tattoo artist. a tattoo artist saw me doing a portrait of some one it kept money in my pocket. long story short i became a tattoo artist and tattooing wasnt considered a legitament business so we neverhad to pay taxes or ssn i was young and stupid and never thought about what happens when i get old, id still be doing art work. now i have no legs. my sitcuation is that me and tom got a house together renting and we split everything which leaves me about 30.00 a month. well tom got put back in a nursing home hes not doing to goodand i cant afford this place. i paid the rent for this month but i cant pay nothing else if i lose electricity i wont be able to charge my chair iwont be able to get around. ive tryed every resorce i heard about. i put an add in paper for roommate wanted, i did it on the craigs list to no avail. ive tried churches ive done everything but this so im trying to get help. im on a one year lease its up in november, i got no where to go, and if i end up homeless i wont beg i cant i feel ashamed of myself. even doing this is bothering me pleading to anyone that has a good heart could help me out. i have a sister in alaska i can go there but i need a van and it has to be special so i can drive with hands but them are for rich people. i got some things i could sell or tradewhatever i gota marlyn monroe print, its costly quit a bit because the print of her there were only a thosand made, its got the actuall artist signature on it, bill mack and it has 2 pieces of metal from the old hollywood sign that they tore down in 1978. it has a title to it for its authenticity. i have my tatto equiptment, i cant tattoo anty more no feet. i have a bear skin rug with head. it has never been walked on cause i had it hung on my wall.its six foot four, black and so awesome its beautiful. honestly i really dont want to sell but if it keeps a roof over my head. i do have something that i would trade sell. i have both computorized legs. their brand new. i never got fitted for them because medicade isnt paying the co pay any more i have to and i cant. their still in the boxes. and i got the receipt for them. they were 40,000 dollars. i wont ever use them. their called otto bach c-knees. look it up on the internet. otto bach. its the state of the art or somthing like that. they have a mission hear not handicap accesible i got a pair of sun glasses i bought at a beattles auction. i cant find the title to them but i assure you their real. i made alot of money as an artist thats why i have these things but i t will tare my heart out watching these things go. not the legs you can get them i hate looking at them. well i really honestly dont know how to use this site, i looked at buttons to push what is that for. once again i apoligize for photo no haarm intended. if there is anyone that can help ill be forever in your debt. so if you do help god bless you and if you dont help well god bless you too. stay gold, stay safe, stay with god.      larry. ..p.s. i for got this, when i was placed on vancomyicin i was on it for almost a year and it did a lot of damage to me, it ruined my teeth. ever tooth i have is busted broke , jagged, i cant chew at all i wont show a picture i promise. dentist wont take medicare. in christ i believe.